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I am back, sort of... going to try to be around again.

everything's so loud that i cannot hear
i've reached out and need to know you're close and near

my world is broken cause i see it that way
it is another sin and another day

how do i choose which path and which door
i'm scared
i have never been this age before

i've seen so much and i'm here to remember
i've just forgot to look because of my anger

what makes me so strong
makes me so weak
it was just one string and i've begun to fall

there are those that speak of grace
yet i've stood there and watched Hell in front me
and it is a face
and i refuse to see

i am so ashamed of what i am suppposed to be
there are promises
i just haven't been able to keep

i try reach behind to grab what was once there and mine
i still cannot grasp what once allowed me to shine

i feel the need to bend my head to the ground
penance is expected and its pound for pound

it is my desire for you is what keeps me here
i deserve you
anyone against will know my fear

i always hunger for a taste that is yours
i want it all and i envy those that manage to keep theirs

i am just so tired
and i don't want to fight
and if i am damned just please let me be
You look in the mirror, and you realize there is no soul. That body in reflection has carried demon in place of a soul since birth, perhaps the worst demon of all. You go through the motions of life, and you have someone that you love. Are you the sum of your actions, are you the spark that gave you life, or are you who you try to be?   
I am back, sort of... going to try to be around again.

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I am not a man this world needs. I don't deserve anything. Kelly is the one person that holds me together. I love her, and I really don't know how I'd exist without her anymore.

I try to be a good person, and I have no ambition to be famous and admired. The way life has treated me... it seems like I don't matter in the grand scheme of things. I will live on though. There is evil incarnate and a hole that resides within me under the surface. I just hope I can keep this shell of a good person alive.


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StarlightShoals Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! :happybounce::squee::la:
Zevais Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2016  Hobbyist
Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016  Student Writer
Thanks for the favourite :)
SolidMars Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Wave by chil96
Thank you kindly for the fav dear :huggle:
have a nice day :heart:
Spoon02 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav'!:)
Ewa-a-nie-chce-spac Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2016   Writer
Thank you for faving Friends? :)
DarkBattleScars Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the watch :)
StarlightShoals Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
HAPPY (slightly belated) BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! :happybounce::squee::party:
Zevais Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2015  Hobbyist
Belated Thank You! My birthday celebratory vacation has been over a week long.
Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015  Student Writer
:love: Thanks for the favourite :)
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