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sinner

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sinner
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everything's so loud that i cannot hear
i've reached out and need to know you're close and near


my world is broken cause i see it that way
it is another sin and another day


how do i choose which path and which door
i'm scared
i have never been this age before


i've seen so much and i'm here to remember
i've just forgot to look because of my anger


what makes me so strong
makes me so weak
it was just one string and i've begun to fall


there are those that speak of grace
yet i've stood there and watched Hell in front me
and it is a face
and i refuse to see


i am so ashamed of what i am suppposed to be
there are promises
i just haven't been able to keep


i try reach behind to grab what was once there and mine
i still cannot grasp what once allowed me to shine


i feel the need to bend my head to the ground
penance is expected and its pound for pound


it is my desire for you is what keeps me here
i deserve you
anyone against will know my fear


i always hunger for a taste that is yours
i want it all and i envy those that manage to keep theirs


i am just so tired
and i don't want to fight
and if i am damned just please let me be
You look in the mirror, and you realize there is no soul. That body in reflection has carried demon in place of a soul since birth, perhaps the worst demon of all. You go through the motions of life, and you have someone that you love. Are you the sum of your actions, are you the spark that gave you life, or are you who you try to be?   
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Contradictory55's avatar
I think we are a crazy mix of everything, beyond the sum of our actions, the spark that first started us, and who we try to be. We are also who we fail to be and succeed in being - though sometimes that 'success' is just a result of circumstances surrounding us, forcing a 'need to be' when we do not 'want to be'. I think I'm getting off-track. I'll stop now.