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The Haunt

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The Haunt
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it hurts so much to be fragile
everyone thinks that i am so strong
that i have some sort of destiny
that i am here
that i am still for some sort of reason
i don't like to hurt anyone
by telling them i am not
anything that they expected
that that i would be
just the end all, be all, sum off all of my pain

can't let go

one step in front of the other
looking like i am a step ahead
when i am still just lagging behind
my one hand is held
someone is standing with me
but my other hand is still empty
empty as it ever has been

can't let go

through the eyes of a father
a dream so far away
but a dream that is as old as i can remember
i am not willing to let go
anything else is just another nightmare
a blend of everything that might have been

can't leg go

there is no erasing what i was
or what i have had to regret
it is a haunt that will be always be in the mirror
it is standing beside
the scars that will never heal
the wounds that will always hurt
you can ignore the pain as long as you want
but there is only so much you can bottle up
there is just nothing else you want to do but scream

because you cannot let go.
I wrote this around the end of September. It was just another one of those moments when you wish you could break every mirror you can find with your bare fist... not because you are angry... not because everything is crashing down... just because you want to live in ignorance of your own reflection.
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jakybouvier's avatar
hey it's been a super long time but... i can relate to that feeling. very much.